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I try... I try...

Is this real
I take a look outside
I push my head thru the window into the world
Watching
Listening
Touching
From this cell
That I call room

I reach out my hand to you
But I am afraid
I try to get out
But I am afraid
I listen to the messages you send
But still in room my time I spend

I try to jump out
But I am afraid
I scream laud
But no one hears me
Not even when I'm in a crowd

It's like a curse
Repeating in every verse
Destroying me from the inside
Pushing me to hide

I try to find myself
But I only see darkness
I try to make myself confess
But every word that comes out from my mouth is worthless

I try

These daysThese days

These days
As I walk thru the valley of my dreams
I am frightened of every move
My skeleton shivers
I would like to speak
Even dou I may seem geek

These days
I would like to reveal
All the pain inside of me
For the world to see

These days
Everything seems the same
Old and lame
Bleached from the wind
So dirty and gray

These days
My mind is somewhere else
Somewhere I can be free
Where my soul swims in the liquid of life
Flying thru the rings of fire

These days
I feel so empty
Like a part of me is buried in a crave
And to open it I must be brave
But my courage is no near

These days
Only birds are singing
E

II've been tortured
I've been abused
Every day I am used
So that's why I see this world so confused
I sneezed so hard I broke my rib
Than they came in and busted my crib

Now…
I have no place to stay
I have to move away
I need to go far
To change what I see in the sky

I try to find the reason
For all this
But its and endless quest
Maybe it would be for the best
If I just drop
And never look back
Should I start to pack

It's like a song trapped in my mouth
But I can't talk
It's like I am on mute
It doesn't help that I am cute

I've been left behind
And I don't deny
But it's not like I'm going to cry

Black...Black…

It's a color of my world
It's a color of my mind
Black is the water I drink
Black is the apple I eat
Black is my feet

It's a color of my world
It's a color of my heart
Black are my eyes
Black is what I see
When I look at thee

It's a color of my soul
It's a color in which I grow

It's the color of my blood
Running thru my veins
It's the color of my hair
Struggling with the wind

It's the color of my bones
It's the color of the cancer eating me
It's the color of death inside me

It's a color of delusion
It's the color of every Gods creation
The color of my emotion

It's a color of my love
Its' a color of my bed

My lifeMy life is a mess
Only constant thing is stress
My every day is full of fear
That my end is near

My life is a bunch of crazy stuff
Looking at them makes me laugh
But inside all I wanna do is cry

I can't forgive myself
I don't even know what I did
Or what I didn't do
But that doesn't matter
I blame myself
And no one else

My life is a big fence
I let no one in
And I don't come out
I am afraid to let them see me as me
Every day I am building new walls
Repairing all holes
That's the only thing that makes me safe

As much as I would like to
I can't seem to convince myself
That it's all, all right
Instead all I want to do is

Gothic Alphabet

A is for ALL the pain you cause me
B is for BEAUTY where you cannot see
C is for words CARVED into my arm
D is for DANGER in this kind of self harm
E is for when I come to the END with disgrace
F is so I can FORGET that beautiful face
G is for GREAT pain you will never know
H is for HIDING, the scars I will never show
I is for INSIDE of my pain-filled mind
J is for when you say JUST Leave The Past Behind
K is for the touch of my skin to s KNIFE
L is for running from this broken LIFE
M is for the MASK I wear everyday
N is for the things that I WILL NEVER say
O is for the OPEN wounds that appear constantly
P is for PRAYING that I

Punked up Gothic SlutWe're all screwed and society is fake
Why can't it be simple, just for the children's sake?
Walk softly, never get close enough to see
Never caring, not noticing, living with false integrity
Blasphemous temptation, bittersweet seduction, who gives a shit, the wicked way
Who'll bother to notice when some stray?
Truth is a lie and can never be
Showing off false virginity
I got one thing to say
You won't take it to your grave
We're all too far away to be saved
Because as a friend once said to me:
"No one dies a virgin
'Cuz life fucks us all"
No one has to far to fall
Punked up, Gothic slut
You call me what you want..but...
As a

writting a song-4 am4 am
Eyes wide open
Searching for the pen
With thoughts on my mind
Destroying the paper as I turn blind

Rushing to finish this sentence
Running out of the ink
Staring at the wall
Rushing to finish before my thoughts sink

The end is so near
My path is now clear

Letters staring at me
Like an owl in the darkest night

The words are becoming meaningless
There's no stopping now
The dam is long gone
I'm almost empty
Just one thing and I'll be done

This cannot be true
The words are not coming out
Everything is so blue
My mind plays tricks with me

I'm starting to loose my sense
Feeling so confused as I clean my lenses

There a

Burning From The InsideWith my head in your hands
I walk beside the stores
Watching the snow falls
I let myself go

Burning from the inside
My life is collapsing
Holding on a straw
I see me falling down
Into the blackness

Running thru the life
My fear is breaking
Swimming in the fun
My hate is sleeping

Burning from the inside
My life is collapsing
Holding on a straw
I see me falling down
Into the blackness

Defeated…
With a tired soul
Lost…
In the deserts of yesterday
Afraid…
Of what comes with tomorrow

You Still Have MeYour face is so close
Every day looking at me
Facing the truth
I try to avoid…

Hopeless are my dreams
Braveless is my hearth
When around you
Myself I find…

I see you
But never again will I have you
And I don't mind the fact I don't have you

The thing is…
That you…
Still have me…

HomelessWaiting in the silence
Wasting my time
Sleeping in the park
Hiding in the dark
I await the moment when I will wake up
And stand on my own

Marching in the line for bread
Making sure I'm not dead
Left behind with nothing
Empty inside
Forced to hide

Facing the enemies with no fear
With a hope to disappear
Standing alone on my side
With no friends behind

Hope is not what I need
Love is not what I feel
These wounds won't heal
For my pain there is no cure
And I don't mind
Cause I know I've tried

Breaking the ruleBreaking the rule

Let me cross that line
I will brake the fence
But I'll pay the fine

I'll even sleep in the jail
To be away from you
No I won't accept the bail

I want to suffer
To feel the hate
Trying to understand the game
Acting like a fool
Breaking the rule

Let me fly my way
Leaving this world
Making my marks with a spray

Let me cross that line
I will brake the fence
But I'll pay the fine

Look at my eyesIf you could just be that one
That special someone
And see that I'm not who I am
And you're not who you are
That we are one
And without each other
We are none

Look at my eyes
And you will see
That there is more into me
You will see the creature that lies beneath me

If you could just help me
Help me overcome this agony of mine
Help me reveal the truth in my mind
Help me face all the secrets I hide

Look at my eyes
And you will see
That there is more into me
You will see the creature that lies beneath me

Just give me your hand and hold me tight
Until I can stand on my own
I promise I won't fight

Just look at my eyes
Be th

sweet wordsThey have flowed like honey in the summer

Words so alive with passion

That I can still taste them

These are the words that we all crave

Loving whispers in the night

Tingling kisses of the mind

Bite my tongue.Sometimes it takes the sharp sting of winter
for my eyes to acknowledge the tears
I should have cried
"Did they hurt?" you ask
As you touch the raised skin
of my regret
softer than a whisper.
"Like nightmare's and broken promises."
I reply.
Then I pull my walls over my shoulders.
Warm with the comfort of ignored emotion.
I lay on your bed
like an old sweater.
Waiting for you to seek
the comfort I promise.
Your arm across my chest
feels like a suit of armor
feels like lonely
feels like my bed will
empty
when I wake up tomorrow.
I evade your eyes like a child's game.
Stay off the lava.
Contact would mean certain deat

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I WANNA KISS YOU

by ~dejan91lp, Nov 29, 2009, 1:49:46 AM
Literature / Poetry / Romantic / Teen / Free Verse

I wanna kiss you
I don't care if you're sick
Or blue

I wanna kiss you
I don't care if you kick
Or stare

I wanna kiss you
And I don't mind
If your blind

I wanna kiss you
I don't mind if your lips are dry
I will kiss you even when you cry

I wanna kiss you
I wanna feel your lips
And hold you for your hips

I wanna kiss you
I wanna see in your mind
And your deepest secret to find

I wanna kiss you
I wanna swim in your eyes
And listen everything you say, even your lies

I wanna kiss you
And I don't care if you stab my back with a knife
Couse for you I will gladly give my life

I WANNA KISS YOUby ~dejan91lp

Literature / Poetry / Romantic / Teen / Free Verse

©2009-2013 ~dejan91lp

I wanna kiss you....
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!LuckyNumberSlevin Apr 3, 2010 Hobbyist Photographer

i like it. This reminds me of me and my girlfriend. When I want to kiss her she says no when she is sick, but I don't care. lol good use of emotion.

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~dejan91lp Apr 4, 2010 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

thanks

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~ForeverWriting Feb 21, 2010 Professional Photographer

Each stanza has it's own emotion! Happy, love-struck, hopeful, kind of sad, ... it's really had to do that. Great job says a fellow poet!!!

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Mood: Love

~dejan91lp Feb 22, 2010 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

thank you wery much Avii
thnks it means a lot specialy coming from a fellow, and a succesfull one as i can see

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~ForeverWriting Feb 23, 2010 Professional Photographer

You're very welcome!
Awww, thanks! Hardly, but thanks!

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~dejan91lp Feb 24, 2010 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

101 sure anztime

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~Thugnastay227 Feb 14, 2010 Photographer

This is how i feel about someone right Now!

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~dejan91lp Feb 14, 2010 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

that is greaT! thanks

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~Thugnastay227 Feb 15, 2010 Photographer

ur welcome. I hope the one i want to kiss knows how much she means to me *hopes*

lol

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~dejan91lp Feb 15, 2010 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

i share the hopes

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